BAD THOUGHTS - Xam/Lil Yung Pharaoh/Max Kourimo

Composed by：Max Kourimo

I'm getting worse by the minute just admit it

You don't even know

What is going through my f**king head

Right now and what is wrong

Why I'm locked inside my room

And writing all these songs

About these bad thoughts about these bad thoughts

I'm counting down every minute time is moving so slow

Everything's in slow-mo every night feels so long

Where is Dora when I'm lost

And I don't know where to go

Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can't swim but I'm going for the deep end

I can't win I'll be dead by the weekend

I got no flowies on my arms and I'm 'bout to drown

Tryna hold on but I'm going down guess I'm a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean

Oh s**t feeling sick too much motion

I don't sleep but I'm dreaming of emotions

I don't have I'm broken the truth's been spoken

I'm gettin worse by the minute just admit it

You don't even know

What is going through my f**king head

Right now and what is wrong

Why I'm locked inside my room

And writing all these songs

About these bad thoughts about these bad thoughts

I don't wanna lie I'm a human and I cry

Myself to sleep at night there's a reason I don't smile

I'm about to tell you why sometimes I wanna die

Sometimes I wanna be alive I got one life out of nine

Oh no

Out of nine

One life

I ain't never been happy try to pretend

OD and get high on the weekend

So low I don't even got no friends

Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year

So you can put a knife through my chest here

I'm a human so it's natural to shed tears

Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die

Just to numb the pain I'll get so f**king high

Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes

First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me

And yeah I got problems that they can't see

So you can put a knife through my chest now

And Imma lay down to rest now

I'm gettin worse by the minute just admit it

You don't even know

What is going through my f**king head

Right now and what is wrong

Why I'm locked inside my room

And writing all these songs

About these bad thoughts about these bad thoughts

I don't wanna lie I'm a human and I cry

Myself to sleep at night there's a reason

I don't smile

I'm about to tell you why sometimes I wanna die

Sometimes I wanna be alive I got one life out of nine