These girls hop around like it’s double dutch

Wine in my cup, sizing em up, where is the love

Reaching for air

Suffocated by trust issues this ***t isn't fair

I played by the rules and got clipped on the air

I showed you i cared

I was really there

Helped you more than i thought i would dare

I was dealing with my ***t but then i canceled it

Answered every phone call

You don‘t know the half of it

Never told you cuz i know your thoughts snowball

I tried to be a good guy but all i got was cut throat

I stopped everything

I stopped making beats and chasing dreams

So i could help you chase your dreams

Funny how that ***t turned quick to a nightmare

Ex girl on my mind

Thousand yard stare

Out of the war but i smell blood in the air

PTSD close my eyes i see you there

Impaired

Stumbling on my feet

I don't normally get like this especially during the week

But i been holding onto words i know it’s hard to believe

You lost yourself awhile back and found yourself in me

Then i was your source of happiness

And that’s how we lose cuz then

When i was hurt you were hurt but you were hurting me

Complicated ***t that we waded through

Young kids in love feels like murder in the 3rd degree

Yea, swear i wish i could give you more

Insecure beautiful girls hard to adore

I tried to give you everything from every single pore

But it was hard for me to open up

Like a locked door i was shut from the moment we kissed

I was already shut before the day that we made love at my crib

I’m sorry, i just been through it all before

Been watching my parents go through it since i was four

Yea

And now im lonely in the aftermath

Sleep with random girls just so i can avoid the heart attacks

Still can’t believe you gave me backlash after everything you said

What a mismatch

Yeah

But whatever i know it’s hard for you

I guess when people lie to themselves they lie to you too

***t’s gonna be hard to undo

But **** it