Come a long way, the hard way

And maybe I made it too hard

Been a long fight, the wrong kind

That breaks you and leaves you unsure

Been fighting to feel like myself

Not sure that’s what I want anymore

Feeling like me is probably the problem

I’ve had all along

I tell I everyone I got better

But what if I’m not?

It's hard to face the truth sometimes

Oh and I tell everyone it gets better

But what if I'm wrong?

It's hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

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Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it’s alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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I got pages and pages of documentation I keep

Looking for answers and patterns I’ve hidden in me

Don’t need the world in my hands

Think I’d be happy with halfway content

I should grow up and shut up

I’m probably wanting too much

Oh and I tell everyone it gets better

But what if I'm wrong?

It’s hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

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Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it’s alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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As I fade into the background,

I remember all the memories I came with

I'm meant to be ok with nobody changing around me,

I’m drowning in isolation,

but these melodies I play with

it's kept me sane again and again

when I’m sometimes taking the pain

and I tell myself I’ll never be amazing

the cemetery’s a playlist, of the voices of the dead

we're respecting what they said,

especially knowing we always say

am I always gonna just be, just be

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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head

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Wondering if this is as good as it gets

Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by

Telling myself it’s alright?

Does it matter how hard I try?

Am I always gonna just be, just be

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