How am I supposed to feel

You strike at my achilles heel with everything that's wrong I can't make right.

If I wait another hundred years the whispers set against the tears I'm never gonna be that shining knight.

I find it hard to be down in this hole now I find myself walking down a hard road.

If I can't say it – if I can't say goodbye.

If I can't say it – if I can't say goodbye I know you never will.

Now I'm waiting for that setting sun to burn me down the day I'm done and spread my ashes out along the beach.

But I find these days are pretty long this war with you goes on and on and I love you as I'm lying through my teeth.

I find it hard to be up on this wall now I find myself trying to make a hard call.

If I can't say it – if I can't say goodbye.

If I can't say it – if I can't say goodbye I know you never will and twenty years of hell will rain down upon us like frogs upon the pharaohs.

I have to say goodbye.

I have to say goodbye goodbye.