Sorry With a Song - Josh T. Pearson

This time you asked

Where I rested my head last night

Last time you left I got my drunk

A** p**sy whupped in a fight

My whole life's been one cliched country

Unfinished line after line after line after line

It's been the curse of my crazy koo-kooed up

Clocks most all of my lifes time after time after time

From the start I told you

Of my dark colourful chequered past

You had to ask

And how I ruined the lives of those I loved

Without so much as a bass-ackwards glance

And the long winding roads buried down

And blacked out towards recovery

And how it took the great god Jehovah

His self to re-uncover me

I said sometimes it's better just not to ask

But your love stood strong

And pressed hard-on through that

Maybe I should've lied

My two wrongs wouldn't a made it right

And however pathetic it sounds upon

It's hearing it's true I have been tried

And have tried

And god knows I've asked him why

So do you want me back

Or to back pack up all of my things

Maybe if I had not drank

All of my money behind the bars

I just coulda bought you a ring

And from the last doin' time

I got those walkin' papers bailed up

And outta your jail I'd barely been unpacked

And that makes twice now in four

To six months that I've had to ask your a** back

Sweetheart you just gotta let me know

Should I stay and if not

Where the hell you reckon I oughta go

And I know it's backass thinkin'

But please forgive what I do

When I've been drinkin'

When I'm down and out so lost

Lonesome and alone

You know I ain't the letter writin' kind print

Or type but then back

When we started

This romancingly stoned little adventure b**ch

I done told your a** now twice

And I know that I know that I know

No one knows more that than I

That I was wrong

And still I can barely say I'm sorry

With the f**kin' song

And If you don't want it that I should stay

Just say

I'll understand your needs either way

Come what may

And I know it's all my fault

And the bloody marriage to the deep alco-hole

I know it's sad to say

But right now these shots keep me sane

Sober and alive

And I love you more humanly possible

Than mere earthly words could describe

And if I tried even in the heavenly tongues

It's purity mere language

Would still simply just pervert

And what little I am able to know

Of love I know that it hurts it's sick

It's sick it's sick

It's a sickness unto death

And it's a hell and at it's best well hell there

Just ain't nothin' worse

And I ain't strung out or playing games stringin

That lovely sass along

And I've tried and I've tried

And I've tried to explain myself

My sins my heart and my oh so very wrongs

Believe me babe it ain't you hell knows

Why I do the dumb sh*t I do-do or think

But dammit heaven knows my heart

It has been tried and has tried

And god knows I've asked him why

And I know it don't

Make it right singin' a simple lullaby

Please accept my humble song

And It ain't got sh*t to do with you

And by god that's god's honest truth

There's more in a man

Than the liquor and the lust

That can make him anything but strong

And you're the guiding light

For which I live and I have nothing else

That I could give and so I sing to you my song

And no it's not an excuse

And I confess my love to you

And say I'm sorry with a song

And woman when you know

That I'm still runnin'

But your love if it keeps on comin'

I'm bound to circle round

Line up staring straight back into you

And I know it don't

Make it right singing a simple lullaby

But please accept my sorry with a song