Why (Explicit) - Trevor Poole

Depression brewin' inside of me

My constant fear and anxiety

I cannot pinpoint the reasons why

I don't feel like part of society

And I could try to take a look inside

To figure out

Why I feel so hurt

Why I lack self worth

Why my life's been pain

Since the day of my birth

And I still feel worse

When the pain returns

Too many things in my mind I can't figure out

All the time you guys would yell

And cuss each other out

You don't care about the demons in my mind

'Cause you had your own demons in you all this time

And you never asked why

Why my b***hes know smiles

Why I ran for miles

Why I changed my style

Why I look so sad

Why I get so mad

Why I want it all to end

I don't make pretend

Lost my cousin to the *** he was 15

But all the *** that the cool kids made seem

I don't care about my friends because the main thing

Is that I do the right thing keep my name clean

And keep my mind clean

Make peace with my d**n anxiety

No way I make it back to sobriety

'Cause all the *** will heal the pain inside of me

I'm breaking down I'm breaking down

Can't figure out why I can't figure out

Can't take away the pain

I'm borderline insane

Why why why

I'm borderline insane

Why why why

I'm borderline insane

I can never focus on the s**t that works

If you give me 50 dollars for my verse

I'll make it work

But I'll write a f**kin' lie

'Cause the truth is all that hurts

I don't think it's a surprise

All my problems are the worst

Triple seven on my wrist but it don't mean jack s**t

Number of the angel I f**kin' thought they exist

Just wanna live 2020 ain't that s**t

Locked in my room when I'm about to go batshit

I wish I could say it to light

Age 17 thought I wanted to die

But I cannot lie even why I do try

True word from my heart to the end of my life

Word from my heart to the end of my life

Why

Word from my heart to the end of my life

I'm breaking down I'm breaking down

Can't figure out why I can't figure out

Can't take away the pain

I'm borderline insane