The Closest Thing I've Found - YCK

Lyrics by：Y C K

This is the closest thing I've found

To a semblance of happiness I doubt

It'll last much longer it never does so

Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown

It's difficult articulating

Just how I'm feeling

I fall apart and crumble down

Every layer is peeling

You're getting closer to

The center you can see my insides

I'm only rotten to the core

But I can wish that in time

I go to prove myself and show

You all that I'm not the one

They make me out to be

A travesty and demon in one

I'm nothing perfect I prefer

To keep my thoughts to myself

I'm still assuring I ain't hurting

Contradicting my health

Ever since December anything I remember

Is nothing good I miss the days

When you put up with my temper

I know I'm hot-headed not

Sending warmest regards

I wouldn't think you'd wanna

See me since we drifted apart

Now the nights are long

And the days falling short

You ain't been calling up my phone

But now I've been calling yours

I want a last time I need to hear

You speaking just once

I still will love you all despite

The things you've said and you've done

This is the closest thing I've found

To a semblance of happiness I doubt

It'll last much longer it never does so

Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown

You say I'm so gifted but what is my gift

When I be ruining Christmas by causing a rift

I'm stirring up the melting pot

Hurt the ones that I love

I do whatever that I want

'Cause no one strikes from above

If they were watching me

They'd obviously be sending a sign

I need autonomy no stopping me

From living my life

There ain't no message in

A bottle coming up from the pipes

I really think I'm only awful

To the ones that I like

I wonder how they put up with

The words that I said

I try to keep 'em to myself

And keep 'em all in my head

I hate confiding 'cause I find

My thoughts are nothing but dark

And often find myself at sea

But like I can't disembark

Won't appreciate me till

When after I'm gone

At least I lived a simple

Life doing things that I want

You couldn't trap me or steer me

Right into a corner

I did what I had felt was right

Thanks to all my supporters

Four walls caving in

There's no saving him

Will they ever hear his real name

Or know what it's like to feel pain

Four walls caving in

There's no saving him

Will they ever hear his real name

Or know what it's like to feel pain

This is the closest thing I've found

To a semblance of happiness I doubt

It'll last much longer it never does so

Now I'll go to the dark into the unknown

Four walls caving in

There's no saving him

Will they ever hear his real name

Or know what it's like to feel pain

Four walls caving in

There's no saving him

Will they ever hear his real name

Or know what it's like to feel pain